In the past years I've made progress by thinking about "what society wants me to do", or less abstractly, "what am I being told to do from the media?"
I find Black/Death metal tends to resonate with my focus on this and the rejection of these suggestions. A message against society. Seeing what is wrong and changing oneself.
In the end, listen to Black/Death metal and think about what you want to reject about society.
Wednesday, February 12, 2014
Sunday, January 26, 2014
NoPorn/NoFap
I've started with this whole exploration of no porn and no masturbation, and it definitely has let me learn more about myself.
I never really thought that I had a problem until I started reading about how porn has affected other people. One person mentioned spending so much time searching for porn and masturbating, with 30min to an hour gone every day. Since that was pretty close to my habit, I realized how much time I was investing in this. This is also at a time when I'm thinking about all the other things I want to work on, and how I don't have time.
There is also the social aspect. Apparently some people use it as a replacement for social contact. Reading that an looking at myself I realized I've done that many times in the past -- staying home on Fridays to read stuff on the internet and jerk off instead of going out with friends.
Given that reflection I've been making changes now. Currently I've started a No Porn restriction that I started back in December 16th. So far it is going well, although I am well aware of temptations to go and seek out some skin. The previous no porn restrictions made me aware of this porn-seeking behaviour, so I'm more aware of it now. I have yet to decide if I change the current restrictions once February comes, if I lift the no fap restriction or not.
This has also raised issues on sexual images being fed to the populace by the media, and how much the current culture seems to focus all on it. Especially the sexualization of women--something that I have become acutely aware of now that I'm off porn. It doesn't take much to get my attention.
I never really thought that I had a problem until I started reading about how porn has affected other people. One person mentioned spending so much time searching for porn and masturbating, with 30min to an hour gone every day. Since that was pretty close to my habit, I realized how much time I was investing in this. This is also at a time when I'm thinking about all the other things I want to work on, and how I don't have time.
There is also the social aspect. Apparently some people use it as a replacement for social contact. Reading that an looking at myself I realized I've done that many times in the past -- staying home on Fridays to read stuff on the internet and jerk off instead of going out with friends.
Given that reflection I've been making changes now. Currently I've started a No Porn restriction that I started back in December 16th. So far it is going well, although I am well aware of temptations to go and seek out some skin. The previous no porn restrictions made me aware of this porn-seeking behaviour, so I'm more aware of it now. I have yet to decide if I change the current restrictions once February comes, if I lift the no fap restriction or not.
This has also raised issues on sexual images being fed to the populace by the media, and how much the current culture seems to focus all on it. Especially the sexualization of women--something that I have become acutely aware of now that I'm off porn. It doesn't take much to get my attention.
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